A Little Post-Surgical Glitch

Someone needs to remind me that I'm seriously old. I didn't take that into account to the degree I should have.

Five days ago my surgery took longer than anticipated. Then non-cancer related complications meant that my hospital stay was an extended one. I didn't sleep for two days and had barf on my glasses on and off for three - could have been more.

Wondering a few weeks ago if I would do this rebuilding process again, I now have my answer. There's not a chance I would unless I were much younger. And I'm not.

I thought I was prepared

The aftermath of my mastectomy was mild compared to the pain from complications this time. Or maybe it's that this is my second major surgery in six months. Or I'm just too old to have done this.

When I've had time to forget this one perhaps I'll feel differently. If the brand new specialists I'll be working with on these new issues perform miracles or if other symptoms clear up tomorrow and I am left to treat only the swollen black and blue green and purple left breast . . . probably still a no.

Peas Aren't Doing It For Me This Time

Count me out for fun stuff I'd hoped to do later this month.  Because for now the count is at Breast Pain = 7.5 Complication Pain 9.5

And I've learned to never discount that there may be something you'd never heard of that could hit when you were looking elsewhere.

Comments

[Eden Spodek]

Susan,
Sorry you're having such a rough time. I'm glad you're feeling well enough to start blogging again. Hopefully the worst is over. Take care of yourself.
Big hugs,
Eden

[marnie webb]

Good healing thoughts headed your way.

[drt]

Agree with Eden. Hopefully the worst is over. I was smilling looking at the picture. Wish you get well soon.

[Jeanne Breault]

Susan, It hasn't been as much fun in twitterland without you! I've been missing you and wondering...I knew that many days without a "tweet" couldn't be GOOD news...like you'd been whisked off to a remote island with no wireless signal to recuperate! :-)

You handle life's little "indignities" (like barf and multi-colored boobs) with such dignity and grace...you're a blessing to everyone who reads your blogs and tweets and plurks and ...

I hope your litle glitches magically disappear very soon, along with your memories of them!

[Wicked Stepmom]

Hang in there, Nana. Take care of you... and know you are loved and thought of every day.

Lots of happy boobie thoughts are being sent your way from your Twitter family.

<3

[GHBrett]

Hey there, you cant be that old! Especially since we were born in same year, weren't we? (secret handshake)

Sending a passel of prayers, best wishes, arcane magic spells, healing beams, and Duckie quacks to you to help nudge your healing in a positive direction.

A Gentle Hug and Love -- geORge

[Teressa Flye]

I wish I could take the pain away. I miss you, and am relieved to see you blogging again, even though I know it took a herculean effort to do so. You are much loved and missed in so many places. But I believe that you'll kick this in the teeth just like you have so many other things. So hike your leg and start swinging!

Love you.

[Suki Fuller]

Sending all my painkilling strength, karma, love and prayers your way.

I hung around VA area all weekend and when I didn't hear from you, I knew something was up.

But you are the woman, blogging and tweeting now ...much love.

~Suki

[Alicia C. Staley (@stales)]

Hang in there. I had a double mastectomy in Janaury, with no recon. It was tough... You will feel better!! Sending healing thoughts your way.

[jonny goldstein]

Glad to hear from you. Sorry to hear about the complications. Ouch!!!!! Sending you my best.

[Sarah S.]

I hope you are feeling better soon. Just take it easy and hang in there. It always seems like an eternity when you are going through it. Soon you will feel better soon!

[whymommy]

Oh, Susan! I'm sorry it's this hard on you. Hoping that it gets MUCH easier MUCH soon.

Hugs,
Susan/WhyMommy

[francine hardaway]

Well, I would never have had the guts to have the reconstruction. You amaze me at what you are willing to go through. But then, I've never had much in the way of boobs, so if they were gone I wouldn't notice much difference:-)

I just want to see you healthy and happy, and I don't care if you have no boobs or six boobs, or what color they are. My thoughts are with you, dear friend.

[GeekMommy]

Oh honey!!!
See... I get wrapped up in my own crap and don't check back like I should and... :(

I'm so sorry.
Much much love!!!

(((((gentle hugs)))))))

Hoping it's better sooner rather than later.

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