2AM Is Getting To Be a Theme - But Oh What a Day

It's 2:30AM and I'm about to go to sleep. I can pack my bag in the AM, leaving one more way for me to be in denial. The cat threw up on the bed just now so I know things are normal in at least one way.

It generally takes a long time for my posts to come together. I'm not a blog and run type woman apparently. In fact, the last time I ran may have been in 1995.

Admittedly my 6'3"son was here today and after doing a great job of being in charge of logistics all day while daughter 3 played my emotional-sidekick, Sgt. Reynolds was now distracting me by playing his entertaining role, asking unanswerable questions like a perpetual five year old.

He knows how to make me sputter and smile at the same time.

"How do people explain alligators if there were none on the ark with Noah?"

By the time I even began to address that, he was onto "Shouldn't there be a home test to see if you have diabetes - like a home pregnancy kit?"

(This went on. And on. He thinks in strange and mysterious and prolific ways. Or maybe the apple doesn't fall far from the tree.)

Meanwhile I've gone back and forth thinking about another topic all through the evening.

After my hospital visit yesterday in preparation for the big day today - - after meeting with Jim Long (twitter's @NewMediaJim ) and talking about what Social Media means to me - -  after seeing the pea fund suddenly appear as a working breathing thing a minute ago - - what could I even begin to say here?

It's a harder question to answer than the one about the alligators.

How do I tell you about the week I've had and how stunned I am at the response to my sharing my cancer story?

• It's impossible to list the wonderful people who have put PEAvatars on their twitter pages or made seesmic videos.

• I don't have any idea who all the people are who have uttered or blogged about breast cancer, Boobs on Ice, the grassroots Frozen Pea fund.

• It's impossible to count the people who have done something small and meaningful for me or made big grand wonderful gestures.

• How can we show our gratitude to you who have been supportive or helped someone behind the scenes?

• What should I say that could possibly convey how heartening it has been to feel all of you with me?

I just can't. But at the same time I know that you know that I feel all of you out there pulling for me, making me smile.

I love each of you. Prepare to be hugged repeatedly when I see you.

Comments

[Connie Reece]

I'm counting on that hug ... and soon! :-)

[NEENZ.]

I believe.

Aloha,
NEENZ.

[Kim Fenolio]

YOU are an amazing woman, proven time and time again. We're here for you even when you don't know how to express yourself, even when you can't explain away the lack of alligators on the ark and especially when you need us to support your breasts (ha!). Hugs, love, prayers and good thoughts are here for you today and in your journey ahead.

[AnnOhio]

I logged onto Twitter this morning to check in on you and immediately went to the Frozen Pea Fund site. Good grief I am just a basket case from seeing the site and all that is there.

I know in my heart that all will be well today for you. (I've also consulted my Magic 8 Ball and it says the same thing!)

Much love,

AnnOhio

[AshDMama]

I'm thinking of you, prayers are with you. You're such an amazing woman, you've given me so much inspiration by just being you. Thank you.

PS The alligators swam under the ark ;).

[vicequeenmaria]

Consider yourself hugged back, Susan! My thoughts are with you today.

[ScottW]

Susan, my family's thoughts are with you this morning. We know all too well what you're going through as both my wife and Mother went through the very same thing.

Stay strong and feel the faith, love and warmth that only God, family and friends can provide. We'll be thinking of you and wish you and your family the very best of outcomes.

Sincerely,

ScottW

P.S. - I've bookmarked this blog now so I can check back to see how you're doing. ;^)

[gj pea (acomputerpro)]

Is it normal that the first thing one does when they wake up in the morning, is check on the health status of an online friend that they have never met? I think so. Even if it was odd, I would still do it, because I know that there is a very real human being behind the @ sign, who needs support in a difficult time. I'm thinking about you, Ms. Reynolds, and all the nice things you've tweeted to me, and how I know everything will be alright.

[Serenity (citywitch)]

My thoughts and prayers are with you today!

I'm a PEAple, she's a PEAple, they're a PEAple, we're a PEAple, wouldn't you like to be a PEAple too?

[DJ Diva]

I am praying for God to bless you Susan...I am proud of the fact that blogging helps me reach out to people all over the world...some right here in my own country. I wish you the best!

[Jill Foster]

Yay Susan! Thanks for sharing your journey albeit icky at times (and your wonderful humor). Blessings.

[kellyd]

We ALL believe. Hugs.

[Mihaela V]

I've never met you, but I was thinking about you all day. So happy to see the lymph nodes results are good. I wish you smooth & speedy recovery, and hope to meet you in person someday.

[mousewords]

I first heard your name this week, and yet today I was blogging about the good news in your surgery updates as if you were a close friend. Y'know, we're all God's children--so yes, you're a close friend. :-):-) Very, very best wishes to you and your family and friends!

[skydaddy]

PEAS to you, dear lady. Last Twitter update I've seen was 12 hours ago. Pins and needles...